Haven't Had A Dream In A Long Time

Don't know what I'm doing anymore, honestly. I'm lost and I think that someone other than me might get hurt along the way. I am aware, but choose to simply blunder my way along because the pain is too much to bear. It overrides everything else. I'm an escapist. I'm selfish.

Lunch on the coming Wednesday with an acquaintance to pick up a dress. Hope it won't be weird. Don't want to regret agreeing. Been trying to put it off but it no longer seems possible. But admittedly, I kind of dug myself into this hole. Sigh. I can only pray that it won't turn out the way I envision.

Happy Halloween!

So for once in my life, let me get what I want
Lord knows it would be the first time