Map Of The Problematique

I haven't been able to blog in a while (actually I drafted a long entry the other day but it has mysteriously vanished), mainly because of the lack of internet access, partly because of the shortage of time. Churned out an insane 3500 word essay in a few hours, nearly died towards to end... I think I wrote gibberish, but wishing hard it'll be ok. Sigh. Please pray for me!

On to other things, I haven't been able to spend much time on fashion e.g. browsing Style.com or magazines (they're insanely expensive nowadays), and I haven't been able to indulge in dressing nicely because I'm always rushing here or there. But I do get random bits of inspiration now and then... will try to doodle them when I get a breather.

Chinese New Year was... muted this year. Guess it was 'cause my aunt passed away, inter alia. Never going to be quite the same. Also, I feel the family dynamics have changed quite a bit, not only because of her passing, but also because the internet has pervaded our lives on so many levels. My aunt and cousins spy on my brother via Facebook, and the cousins/nieces from different (overlapping) generations are all hanging out and exchanging gossip.. It's pretty weird. Thankfully I'm still out of it all. Too complicated, man.

So it's halfway into the semester, and I'm finding myself semi-enjoying it, but also feeling pained at how different things are. I can only blame myself for being such a lousy dope at all these people nonsense. I'm really fearful of how everything will turn out after May. I can only do my best--believe me, I am trying! So so hard..--and leave the rest to Him. So far, my French test has been ok (Ugh! Careless mistakes!!!) and the essay (let's just assume it's a gone case) is done with.. Um, yeah. So, I'm going to begin cramming soon--otherwise I'll never make it--and I apologise if updating is irregular. Doesn't help that my laptop is getting really slow and I can't edit photos.

Watched 2012 just now, and didn't think it was such a bad movie. Over dinner, I told my brother if it were true that the world would end on 21 December 2012, then 12.12.12 would be my last birthday. His response? "That's so cool... You should get married then." Gee -.-


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