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So the 15 days of Lunar New Year are over, and my newest addiction is on TV right now. But I'm stuck in my room forcing myself to finish up some administrative matters. Always seems to be the case, huh.

Finally managed a quick (and rather unsatisfactory) doodle... This was LNY Day 1's outfit, obviously.

Taupe dress, H&M
Silver leaf drops earring, Jatujak market in Bangkok
Black satchel with tassel, Mango
Black buckle boots, Pedro (not featured)

Suffered a crushing rejection again--don't say I don't try--and it really makes me not want to have anything to do with it. If already I face such a huge stigma, what more when I am in it? If nobody is going to give me a chance, how will I prove myself? Yes, based on my track record I will likely fail. But nobody will blame you because it's my fault. In fact, good on you for giving a failure a shot. But if I make it, all credit goes to you, not me. I would beg, it's not entirely beneath me, but I refuse to. Why should I have to work so hard to get to do something I don't want to? When is enough?Wondering how I will eventually find something I want to do, something that will afford me the sort of nomadic, detached lifestyle I need. I don't rule out the possibility of becoming estranged from this world and those who used to love me. Will there be anyone or anything to tie me down to anywhere? Where will I settle? What will I depend on?

Check out Anna Sui and Monique Lhullier if you will. Next week isn't going to be much of a break i.e. no updating.


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