+ 郭彦均 !!!
+ Robert Pattinson !!
+ Thomas Daley !!!!
+ Nestle Tollhouse Cookie (recipe here)
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+ Screwed for school ))))): Although the letter doesn't change a thing except add unnecessary pressure. Are they looking to force me to commit?
+ Buried in work ))):
+ Spotted O_O by Mom's friend !
+ falling apart at the seams
+ precariously teetering at so many brinks
+ on the verge
+ if you're not the one?
Why is it all happening now? The year that everything was supposed to be settled, easy, comfortable so that I can come of age happy and unworried and unencumbered... Is it mere wishful thinking to be content and have everything mapped out and decided for the rest of my life at this stage? Me: ever whole? (Anagram) Couldn't care less about myself, but I feel so guilty for letting everyone down. I'm finding it increasingly difficult to go on everyday. I put on this facade when I am not alone. I try to be brave, be strong. But the veneer is chipping away. It is flawed. I am flawed. I vent everything that's pent up inside, lashing out without restraint even as disapproving stares are directed my way. I hate myself for doing it and I feel terrible.
Dreams are me. They are an extension of my self; the realised renditions of the very innermost desires that I wish to hide away. Sometimes, they are painfully clear; other times, they are hazy and uncertain. I do not wish to deny it, so I must be frank. I wish I were sick or dying. But even that would be no excuse. Forgive me ):
And that's the way the cookie crumbles.
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